2013

I swear it feels like I was just saying "wow it's December already" and now it's 2013!  Time flies when you're having fun.  I don't have a fancy recap of 2012.  I don't have the time to look back at the year and analyze it.  What's the point really?   it's over, look forward.  I will cherish the good and learn from the bad.  I tend to spend most of my energy freaking out about the future rather than freaking out about the past.  I'm real mature like that ;).   For those of you who want a little bit of a recap here you go.  Hayden turned 7!   He went to his first Nascar race and loved every minute of it.   Now he doesn't want to watch Nascar unless he goes to the track.  He's a bit spoiled.  We adopted a little girl named Cynthia and we loved every minute of it.  She turned 3 and tells me she loves me all the days!  I laughed, I cried, I was confused, I was completely certain.   Mike went duck hunting.  We lived a lot, we learned a lot, we loved a lot.  It was, as they all are a very blessed year. 

Mike refuses to make new years resolutions.  Personally I think he makes them but doesn't tell anybody about it.  He's super smart like that.   I on the other hand make them every year and blab them every year.  Unfortunately I usually don't stick with them very often.  Looking back on last years...oh wait I only look forward, that's right.  Who cares about last years resolutions.  This year my resolution is to be the best me I can be.    I'm not getting any younger and Lord knows dieting isn't getting any easier.  Forty is nipping at my heels and I want to be in the best shape of my life before that happens.  When did 40 become closer than 30?  Duh, when I turned 36.  Is it sad that I had to ask Mike how old I was going to be?  I actually thought I was I was going to be turning a year older than I actually am this year.  It must be my mature way of thinking.  I joined a gym this year and I'm not hating it.  There is usually some point during my workouts I plot to hurt the instructor or one of ladies in the front row who are way to enthusiastic.  Other than that I am doing good.  I mean I haven't ACTUALLY hurt anybody.  So that's good right?  Again it's real mature of me.

Then there is the whole time management goal. I stink at time management.  I much prefer surfing the internet over cleaning.  My life would be so much simpler if I just did things throughout the day.  Instead I sit around, tidy up, sit around, straighten up this...then the panic sets in as the clock hits 4:30.  Oh smack my husband is going to be home in less than an hour.   I must make it look like I did more than just create a loving a nurturing environment for my two children all day.  I must start dinner and mad dash pick up the house.  Come on I am not the only one...right?

Away from resolutions.......

Hayden:  we are finally getting life back on track for him.  We are getting Hayden back.  YAY!!!  He's our fun loving little man again.  He's doing much better in school and at home.  Christmas break was a turning point.  I think he needed that break.  I think he needed to be home and relaxed for a couple of weeks. 

Tomorrow our cupcake goes for a sleep study.  I don't think I have shared this on the blog, but here it goes she bangs her head at night.  I mean she really bangs her head at night.  To the point where she needs to wear a helmet and at least once a week wakes up with bruises around her eyes and nose.  It's heartbreaking.  We can't stop it no matter what we try.  Most of the specialist we've seen have said it's just something she does and "hopefully" she will outgrow it soon.  Nope didn't like that answer, so I pushed for a sleep study.  We are going to rule everything out before we just say its something she does.  More than likely it is nothing and has a lot to do with what happened before she came to us.  Now it's just a habit she can't break.  I just ask for prayers.  I'm not sure for what but pray that we get to the bottom of it and it's nothing serious.

So tomorrow I will go and "sleep" in a bed next to her.  Watch as she bangs her head and not be able to do anything about it.  She won't be able to wear her helmet because she will be hooked up to monitors.  I am so worried she is going to get hurt or bang her head to hard.

If you think about us tomorrow please say a prayer for her.

I hope everyone Is having a wonderful 2013 so far.  Here's my goofy babies over Christmas.  I think my heart just melted. 

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Love
Tina