Friday, January 25, 2013


I swear it feels like I was just saying "wow it's December already" and now it's 2013!  Time flies when you're having fun.  I don't have a fancy recap of 2012.  I don't have the time to look back at the year and analyze it.  What's the point really?   it's over, look forward.  I will cherish the good and learn from the bad.  I tend to spend most of my energy freaking out about the future rather than freaking out about the past.  I'm real mature like that ;).   For those of you who want a little bit of a recap here you go.  Hayden turned 7!   He went to his first Nascar race and loved every minute of it.   Now he doesn't want to watch Nascar unless he goes to the track.  He's a bit spoiled.  We adopted a little girl named Cynthia and we loved every minute of it.  She turned 3 and tells me she loves me all the days!  I laughed, I cried, I was confused, I was completely certain.   Mike went duck hunting.  We lived a lot, we learned a lot, we loved a lot.  It was, as they all are a very blessed year. 

Mike refuses to make new years resolutions.  Personally I think he makes them but doesn't tell anybody about it.  He's super smart like that.   I on the other hand make them every year and blab them every year.  Unfortunately I usually don't stick with them very often.  Looking back on last years...oh wait I only look forward, that's right.  Who cares about last years resolutions.  This year my resolution is to be the best me I can be.    I'm not getting any younger and Lord knows dieting isn't getting any easier.  Forty is nipping at my heels and I want to be in the best shape of my life before that happens.  When did 40 become closer than 30?  Duh, when I turned 36.  Is it sad that I had to ask Mike how old I was going to be?  I actually thought I was I was going to be turning a year older than I actually am this year.  It must be my mature way of thinking.  I joined a gym this year and I'm not hating it.  There is usually some point during my workouts I plot to hurt the instructor or one of ladies in the front row who are way to enthusiastic.  Other than that I am doing good.  I mean I haven't ACTUALLY hurt anybody.  So that's good right?  Again it's real mature of me.

Then there is the whole time management goal. I stink at time management.  I much prefer surfing the internet over cleaning.  My life would be so much simpler if I just did things throughout the day.  Instead I sit around, tidy up, sit around, straighten up this...then the panic sets in as the clock hits 4:30.  Oh smack my husband is going to be home in less than an hour.   I must make it look like I did more than just create a loving a nurturing environment for my two children all day.  I must start dinner and mad dash pick up the house.  Come on I am not the only one...right?

Away from resolutions.......

Hayden:  we are finally getting life back on track for him.  We are getting Hayden back.  YAY!!!  He's our fun loving little man again.  He's doing much better in school and at home.  Christmas break was a turning point.  I think he needed that break.  I think he needed to be home and relaxed for a couple of weeks. 

Tomorrow our cupcake goes for a sleep study.  I don't think I have shared this on the blog, but here it goes she bangs her head at night.  I mean she really bangs her head at night.  To the point where she needs to wear a helmet and at least once a week wakes up with bruises around her eyes and nose.  It's heartbreaking.  We can't stop it no matter what we try.  Most of the specialist we've seen have said it's just something she does and "hopefully" she will outgrow it soon.  Nope didn't like that answer, so I pushed for a sleep study.  We are going to rule everything out before we just say its something she does.  More than likely it is nothing and has a lot to do with what happened before she came to us.  Now it's just a habit she can't break.  I just ask for prayers.  I'm not sure for what but pray that we get to the bottom of it and it's nothing serious.

So tomorrow I will go and "sleep" in a bed next to her.  Watch as she bangs her head and not be able to do anything about it.  She won't be able to wear her helmet because she will be hooked up to monitors.  I am so worried she is going to get hurt or bang her head to hard.

If you think about us tomorrow please say a prayer for her.

I hope everyone Is having a wonderful 2013 so far.  Here's my goofy babies over Christmas.  I think my heart just melted. 




Tracy said...

Hey Tina- I will be thinking of you and Cynthia as you do her sleep study. That has to be so hard :( It probably is something subconscious - but I wanted to share when we were growing up my brother did this for years. I don't remember him hurting himself - but he would rock on all fours and bang his head and sort of chant. My parents would wake him and he would stop. He eventually grew out of it. I don't know if they had him checked out- I'll ask my Dad. We don't talk about it much unless we recall the first time we camped in our pop up camper and he shook the whole camper. Anyways I hope they have some answers for you- good luck! Tracy

Amy Z. said...

How did it go??? So proud of you guys- you and Mike are amazing parents, Hayden and Cynthia are blessed beyond belief- and a blessing to you as well!!! Thinking of you! xoxo

Turtles Mom said...

I have to exercise patience with this whole situation I get that. But when you go for a sleep study and sleep tech is not even aware that she bangs her head at night it's a bit frustrating. His paperwork said sleep apnea is what he was testing for. When he looked at it further it said they thought the cause of the head banging was from sleep apnea. Which is so off because she bangs her head before she even falls asleep. It will be interesting to see what the results say. They didn't even start the study until almost 10pm and as soon as he told her she could lay down she fell asleep. She wasn't even awake and never even budge when they were putting all the leads on her. So when she woke up in the middle of the night with all of that attached and not being able to bang her head my baby girl was not a happy camper. It was so sad to watch.

Turtles Mom said...

Thank you ladies very much!