Fragile X conference in Miami. This was the first conference that I did not beat myself up. Never once did I call myself a bad mom. Don't get me wrong I had a lot of duh moments and oh crap why have I not done that??? This was also the first conference I came home and actually implemented what I learned. Why did I do this for the first time, because I spent more time taking it in and learning than beating myself up. For the first time I looked at the older boys and thought "look how happy they are" and "I hope Hayden is always that happy". Don't get me wrong I have high hopes for Hayden and I always will. But, as long as whatever he is doing he is happy doing it...that's ok. Lets be honest do you really think the president is happy anyway? So you know what I'm ok with Hayden not being the president someday. This was also the first conference I socialized...I mean really I met new people, hung out with some really great friends and ate way to much food. I love all of that about confernce It's like one big family reunion of people you don't know and some that feel so much like family that it hurts when you leave. It's so hard to "hang" with kids...you know cause somebody needs their butt wiped or is trying to dress the cat. So going to confernce without kids gives us the opportunity to socialize, hang out way to late, sleep in, get starbucks every morning. Not to mention eat out without having to a) scarf it down so fast because someone wants to watch cars or b) sit forever after everyone one else is done and table next to you has had three sets of new customers because somebody eat slower than winter comes in Texas. All of this would not have been possible without my mom Thank you so much for watching the kids so Mike and I could enjoy another conference. We had a great time!
We have "hired" an adoption attorney!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We have started the paperwork. Now I am just waiting for a date, still waiting, still waiting, when is it going to be??????? Who do I need to call to get a date already????? There is very little that can go wrong but still there is that small chance until everything is signed I will not be relieved. We are one small, slow, baby step closer. I told you I am not patient right? Keep praying with us please.
School starts this Monday! Panic Attack, Heart racing, ...holy crap!!! I am freaking out...not because I have a little boy in the second grade or my little girl is going to big school. Nope I am freaking out because I have to get two kids ready and out the door at the same time, for the first time EVAH!!! Go ahead laugh at me, I'll wait. Are you finished? Ok moving on....Cupcake starts early intervention preschool and Hayden is going into 2nd grade...sigh. We have our backpacks and our lunch boxes and a lot of school supplies. We have our first day of school outfits picked out...kind of...one of us keeps trying to decide if she wants to wear a dress or pants and the boy is refusing to wear a button up shirt because only daddy wears shirts with buttons. So we'll see what Mondays pictures look like. For the most part on the outside it looks like I'm one put together mommy. I am so not one put together mommy. I made sure the tissue box in the car is full and I made Mike take the day off. I need support, I admit it. I fully intend on dropping the kids off and staying strong, waving goodbye, giving the big mommy hugs they like and then going to starbucks...and crying in my grande, non-fat, iced, caramel machiatto. Mike will tell me several times that I cannot go peek in any class room window's cause you know they arrest people for that. Then he'll tell me that nobody has stolen my babies while they were on the playground and no you cannot call the school and ask them to check. Then he'll say maybe while the kids are at school you can clean up the house...then I will have to beat him with my meat masher....yep that is our first day of school cycle. What can I say I like routine...maybe I can make a picture schedule for me. drop kids off, get in car, clean snot off face, starbucks, eating chocolate in closet, physical restraint, pick up girl, check for physical trauma, pick up boy (what? he's not riding the bus on the first day), check for physical trauma, ice cream.....start it all over again the next day.....
There you have it! In a nutshell our last few months. Hope you all had a wonderful summer and are ready for school to start.
Disclaimer...nobody proofed this and I had 20 minutes to get it out the door...don't critique it...that's just really annoying...love you!!